Lilith Reid

♥♥♥♥ PLEASE WOULD ANYONE WANTING TO LEAVE A TRIBUTE TO MY ANGEL MESSAGE ME WITH IT FIRST
OTHERWISE IT WILL BE DELETED, THANK YOU xx ♥♥♥♥

Died: 25th January 2008
Due to Earth: 29th August 2008

Family: Lilith was little sister to Angels Calendar, Trinity, Leo, Keain, & big sister to Dylyn and
to James Samuel Jonathan Leo (living Child).

After my 4th loss I decided I wanted to get the coil fitted because I was sure that I didn't want
anymore children any time soon. So I planned my appointment and got set for the day...

I went to the appointment and went in to the doctor she poked and prodded a bit and had a worried
look on her face, she sent me to the toilet to get a sample of my urine and then done a test, she
then turned and told me I was pregnant, my jaw just dropped and then I almost burst into tears, I
wouldn't believe it. I was still so upset after O/H had left.

I couldn't really get over the shock of being pregnant. wasn't really sure what to do. I told my ex
and he didn't want to know about the child but why would he when he had already left me.

So I told a few close friends and just accepted it. Then my cousin contacted us from Kent (England)
and told us she was having alot of problems in her pregnancy and didn't know if her baby was going
to make it or not...

On 23rd Jan we were contacted again and told they had induced her labour at 15weeks after there was
no heartbeat. My heart just broke for her, she had wanted her baby so much, they called it Billi as
they were unsure if it was a boy or girl.

I felt totally riddled with guilt for being pregnant and having her lost her baby...

But sadly on 25th Jan 2 days after her loss. and after a night of agony, my started bleeding and
having lots of clots...

And then Lilith was gone…

Sadly I didn't get close to her, and felt it was not right for me to cry over her... so not really
grieved for her yet...

It's been almost 4 years since I lost Calendar (my 1st Angel) but my heart is still sore and my eyes
still often filled with tears, even having a living son my arms are still empty alot and I still
find myself begging god to send back my angels.

I really do hope that someday I will have more living children but only time will tell....
Maybe then I’ll be able to have a pregnancy without fear of loss?

Lilith was still my little girl and i will always wonder what could have been, what she would have
looked like and what she could have done in her life time, but she was spared the pain of living and
taken straight to heaven to be with her brothers and sister.

She will be sorely missed...

R.I.P
Lilith Reid
~ Flew -25th January 2008 ~